Anonymous said: What's it like leaving treatment completely? seems so far away for me :(

It’s extremely liberating and very scary. The main thing is you have to be totally ready and sometimes you’re not the best judge of that. People I know have been discharged prematurely and have gone onto struggle again and relapse badly without the safety net of support. I know that feeling of frustration at just wanting to get out and ‘be better’ but you’re there for a reason and I promise that when you are discharged, it will be for the right reasons and you will feel so positive about it xx

For me, I was in a position in which I could cope without hands on treatment and doctors. If I’m honest, I was sick of doctors and appointments and meal plans and weigh ins and treatment started to become a drain on my real life - this was how I knew it wasn’t really necessary for me anymore. My ‘normal’ life was becoming fulfilling and most importantly enjoyable and it was treatment that became a drag on that, not a helping hand. I still have a therapist who I see sometimes and my CAMHS consultant has said I can call him if things start to rapidly worsen, so I am lucky to still have a little cushion if I ever need it. 

Leaving treatment is a huge step and for me it felt like the point where I knew how to look after myself and I also kind of wanted to as well. Don’t worry, lovely, you’ll get there when you’re ready to xx


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Anonymous said: Hey! What unis are you applying to?? I've read a few things on your writing blog and wondering if you're going to do anything more? I'm sure you'll get offers from all of them x

Helloo

I’ve applied to Oxford, Bristol, Newcastle, Manchester and Edinburgh ( I doubt I’ll get five offers). 

Oh wow, I don’t usually associate that with this shitty blog thing, haha. Um, I hope to do some more writing stuff on that one and I’m thinking of making a more journalistic style, political blog. Thanks for looking at some of my silly things!

Sorry I haven’t answered this, I don’t go on this too much anymore unless to post pictures and I hadn’t applied to uni when you asked.

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