Anonymous said: What's it like leaving treatment completely? seems so far away for me :(
It’s extremely liberating and very scary. The main thing is you have to be totally ready and sometimes you’re not the best judge of that. People I know have been discharged prematurely and have gone onto struggle again and relapse badly without the safety net of support. I know that feeling of frustration at just wanting to get out and ‘be better’ but you’re there for a reason and I promise that when you are discharged, it will be for the right reasons and you will feel so positive about it xx
For me, I was in a position in which I could cope without hands on treatment and doctors. If I’m honest, I was sick of doctors and appointments and meal plans and weigh ins and treatment started to become a drain on my real life - this was how I knew it wasn’t really necessary for me anymore. My ‘normal’ life was becoming fulfilling and most importantly enjoyable and it was treatment that became a drag on that, not a helping hand. I still have a therapist who I see sometimes and my CAMHS consultant has said I can call him if things start to rapidly worsen, so I am lucky to still have a little cushion if I ever need it.
Leaving treatment is a huge step and for me it felt like the point where I knew how to look after myself and I also kind of wanted to as well. Don’t worry, lovely, you’ll get there when you’re ready to xx